You never deserved more than an ounce of my attention. I gave you everything and you treated me like I was nothing. Now that I'm starting to get with someone else you put all your time and energy into me. Too bad that's what I gave you for months even after you treated me so horribly. So don't beg me to come back because I'm too far gone. And I'm not looking back. I deserve this.

i guess we all figure out that the person we knew, wasn't the person they were.

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i mean i'm friends with you and all but you're a little bit pathetic. lol like trying to talk to girl's in your sister's grade is well........ really sad. haha but anyways i think i'm just going to move on because i really do deserve it. so this guy that i have thought was cute for a while wants to go on a double date with me and my friend. my friend told me that he thought i was cute and was wondering if i would go. today i told her i would. even if it doesn't happen at least he thought i was hott haha. so basically what i'm getting here at is i guess i just think it's this one guy because no one else would ever like me, but maybe i'm more desirable than i think that i am.

god now i'm actually getting angry. WHY WON'T ANYONE JUST TRY TO FUCKING GET TO KNOW ME. god i put in 95% of the effort in any relationship to anyone. god it's just frustrating. can someone please tell me what's wrong because i don't understand.

boy are disgusting. there has never been one there for me without screwing me over. why has no guy ever gotten to take the time to know me without having the incentive of hooking up with me. just because i have done something before doesn't mean i will do it again. you don't have a freaking right to me. you don't fucking own me. saying you'll wait "as long as it takes" and making refrences that you wouldn't try to hookup with me anytime "soon". WHAT MAKES YOU THINK THAT IF YOU WAiT AROUND LONG ENOUGH THAT YOU HAVE ACCESS TO MY ZIPPER. that is absolutly ridiculous. why hasn't any guy just tried to be friends with me? why does no one like me for my personalitly? that's actually really offending. ALL I WANT IS SOMEONE WHO WILL FUCKING CARE ABOUT ME FOR ONCE GOD DAMMIT. you shouldn't be doing all of these things to try to get with me. all i want is a friend.

oh so you finally decided to come support your daughter? i'm going to show you you should have always been there.

oh but on an exciting note I'm running in the Varsity Cross Country meet on wednesdayyyyyy woooooo. oh and today i got sassy with a hispanic girl at school, they're all talk though i swear. haha it was pretty great.

hmm maybe i shouldn't write when i'm in an unusually good mood, or when i am really upset. i come across as a little bi polar. hahaha

oh well i tried if you don't want to answer then that's fine

maybe i was too quick to cut you out completely. i miss you being my best friend. i miss being able to tell you all the stupid things about my day. i miss us just hanging out and having a great time. i want to go back to the days before we dated when things weren't so forced. when we were just truly, purely best friends. i want to call you and tell you this. i know you won't answer. i also know if you do you won't want this after how i yelled at you. i was just really hurt. ugh i might as well call you and see how it goes. i mean i honestly have nothing to lose.